So I got kicked out by my roommate and lost my job. My roommate was both my boss and landlord. Also my fencing instructor. I am too overwhelmed with depression and anger. I'm no longer going to be able to fence anymore. I'm just going to focus on getting better at drawing and 3d modeling. Probably work on my 3d printing business. I just keep losing. I can't win. I don't even know why I even keep going anymore. i just feel too old and too tired. I'm tellin ya, I wish I wasn't born.